Happy Friday everyone. I am so looking forward to this weekend it is not even funny. Last night my Law Office went bowling and it was so much fun but ended up being kind of a late night so I am exhausted.
For today’s post I wanted to write on the subject of “personal space” and boundaries. I am not sure how those of you out there feel about this but as far as I am concerned I definitely like my space. I am not sure if it is due to the fact that for SO long I w as dependent on my boyfriend, or men in general, to make me feel safe and secure. Or if it is because I am finally stable and on my own in my own place without having to share it with anyone. Whatever the reason may be, I have grown accustomed to going home to an empty house, and sleeping in a bed all alone.
So, when it does come time to share that space again, I am definitely NOT a “cuddle while we sleep” kind of girl. It isn’t that I don’t enjoy cuddling, I do, just in the appropriate times. I just have enough trouble sleeping as it is what with my insomnia and etc. that I really don’t need any more discomfort added to the mix. And I am sorry but I do not find being unable to adjust or breathe while I sleep comfortable AT ALL. I like to sleep how I like to live: Free and Independent. Yes I have run into problems concerning this issue with guys I have dated. For instance, I know some of my actions in a relationship make me appear cold or uninterested, but that really isn’t the case.
I guess another huge part of it is the whole concept of Trust. I mean there is just no way I am going to invite someone into my personal sanctuary unless I know for sure that they are not someone that is going to peace out after a week or two. My home is my safe place you know? It is my comfort zone and I am not about to allow someone to invade it and tarnish it with negative energy so that I can constantly be reminded of how I was totally lied to or cheated on or used for a one night stand…. do you see where I am going with this?
So yeah I am very particular about who I invite in and who I share my bed with but I am okay with that because at the end of the day, when I get home from a long day at work, I sit on my bed and I am so calm and comfortable in my home. I just refuse to let someone ruin that.
“Don’t ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up” -Robert Frost
[Currently Listening to: Relief Next to Me by Tegan and Sara]